Here's the painting I started before school, and finished on the 7th of November, I believe. It's almost an insignificant statement now, but I guess it can serve the purpose of dating my anguish. Although, it is still an inaccurate date, because it should really go back to last January (when I made the realization..). You know, Decembers and Januaries are always important months in my life. It's like I make unconscious resolutions in my mind, and fulfil them at the last minute. Then something usually explodes in January, and I get stuck in some kind of new depressing crap.

This painting took long because I had no time to work on it, and had to feel it to do it. It was a difficult painting, but it got easier in November when I felt it more...

I feel horribly sad when I look at this, and that kind of made my procrastinate on posting it. Aside from the fact dark colours are hard to photograph without huge glare.

Somebody's going to criticize the hard, dry brush strokes. I don't enjoy how thick some of them are, but they put in the rough detail that's needed. I'm better at painting with acrylics like this now, I think, but I still think I need to improve on it.

Acrylic on a sheet of watercolour paper.

Copyright (c) Karolina Wilka Szablewska - 2006.